'Tis The Season To Be Jolly

He's going away for the holiday season. Hadn't seen his family for years.

I hadn't seen him for 10 days.

I was pretty upset when he cancelled last night. I won't be seeing him again for God knows how long. A month? What if he decided to pack his bag and left somewhere like he did before? He does have that tendency. Something that I somehow admire from him. That strain of uninhibitedness. That ability to switch into a complete ignorant.

He did came to me this afternoon. Has this becoming a need? I know it does for me, but is it mutual?

We had time enough to cuddle and shared obscene jokes. How bizzare that our bodies fit into a tangled mould. I used to think I would feel only so cozy with my ex.


His flight at two.
Couldn't get through to his phone.
He'd worn me out.
He'd joined me in my dream, too.
Such a bliss.
A pleasant, pleasant feeling.
I'm going to miss him.


some family artefact some 200 years ago